what the fuck am i doing
1. The meaning behind my URL
2. A picture of me
3. Why I love my bestfriend
4. Last time I cried and why
5. Piercings I have
6. Favorite Band
7. Biggest turn off(s)
8. Top 5 (insert subject)
9. Tattoos I want
10. Biggest turn on(s)
11. Age
12. Ideas of a perfect date
13. Life goal(s)
14. Piercings I want
15. Relationship status
16. Favorite movie
17. A fact about my life
18. Phobia
19. Middle name
20. Anything you want to ask
(Source: idrising)
You know how it is, right, ladies? You know a guy for a while. You hang out with him. You do fun things with him—play video games, watch movies, go hiking, go to concerts. You invite him to your parties. You listen to his problems. You do all this because you think he wants to be your friend.
But…Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
oh god so perfect
take me, take me back to your bed
i love you so much that it hurts my head
i don’t mind you under my skin
i let the bad parts in, the bad parts in
when we were made we were set apart
life is a test and i get bad marks
now some saint’s got the job of writing down my sins
and the storm is coming
the storm is coming
(Source: observando)
sometimes i start writing my text posts, the feelingsy ones, and they get too personal for the people i know who follow me, so i transfer them into my phone notes with all the other sudden gushes of words that live there…
i kind of wish i could share them tho…they sometimes seem to form poetry, or poetic short prose things, and i am still at this point trying to find a way to write. i have always known it was writing, but i have never hit upon the proper form…i have little bits and pieces everywhere, some that are very secret but that i’m proud of for how i found the right words…
they seem to just happen as i write or type, like they were put into my head
at any rate, i need to stop using tumblr/fb as my journal, and start…ACTUALLY JOURNALING again, which is more productive since i don’t have to imply or hold back details belonging to people who would recognize themselves…
I wish that there was a socially acceptable way to say, “I’m having a bad mental health day and need you to pay attention to me,” without alienating everyone.
or: “I’m having a bad mental health day and need to be…
these would both be good…sometimes i need them both at once lol
you, you & you, get out, i can barely deal with you under normal circumstances
you & you, hold me & tell me you don’t mind that i’m psycho ;_____;